They had all looked like they wanted to ask, but Suyin’s eyes had widened so much at what was implicitly stated in those words that none of them could. Instead, Suyin sank back down into her chair, eyes flashing with thought. And then, she stood up.
“It’s late,” she said suddenly, “and we’re all tired. Come on, Lei. I’ll find you a room.” She paused once more, and then added, “and none of this sleeping on the floor or in the kitchen. This is England, not China.” She stood, smoothing out her skirt purposefully, and then took a deep breath, before sweeping out of the room, Lei following behind her. When the two Asians had disappeared from sight, Elin stood up as well, and burst out.
“We can’t let her go!” she said empathetically.
“Of course not,” Lenore said soothingly.
“Why would we?” Ettie added, before pausing, “although I do think it would be good for her to see her family…”
“You’re one to talk,” Lenore added suddenly, “you haven’t seen your mum in ages.”
“That’s because she disowned me,” Ettie replied, the slightest prick of edge coming into her voice, “the same way Suyin’s mum did, more or less.”
“What…?” Simeon asked suddenly, and the two of them paused, turning to the newer members of the crew.
“Never mind, that’s not important,” Ettie said hastily, “but I…I do still think she should go.”
“But if she doesn’t come back? What if they don’t let her come back?” Elin pressed, worry written all over her frail face.
“Then we go with her,” Simeon said, “we go with her and bring her back if we need to.” The lack of argument to that response made it clear that it was a unanimous thought.
It was, of course, Ettie who found Suyin in the kitchen, scrubbing away at dishes and teacups with furious vigor.
“You know,” she said suddenly, “you reminded me of your mother today.” The furious scrubbing noise stopped for a minute, and then Suyin turned, grimacing at Ettie.
“That’s the last thing I want to hear,” she said, sighing and setting down a soapy plate and flicking away the extra suds before drying her hands off on a rag, “I never wanted to be like my mother.”
“None of us ever do,” Ettie replied, “but you know you were rather mean to him.”
“Like my mother?” Suyin quipped, smiling slightly. But Ettie didn’t take the bait.
“Exactly like your mother,” the red-head replied, not so gently. Suyin turned away, to look out at the moonless sky dotted with its ship stars.
“Should I go back?” she wondered out loud, but when Suyin turned back to see Ettie’s face, she was gone.
The next day, there was a surprising rise in the number of customers at the shop, and even with the crew helping—or, in Ettie’s case, hindering—things weren’t going as smoothly as one might have hoped. Finally, in a fit of desperation, Suyin ran to the kitchen, and Simeon watched with a bit of amusement and a bit of flabbergastation as Suyin tugged Lei up by the arm, grabbed an apron, and stuffed him into it and shoved a tea tray into his hands.
“Miss Suyin—” Lei started, but the lady was already pushing him out the door.
“I need all the help I can get right now,” she said simply. Simeon tried to give him a sympathetic look—after all, that was how he had been roped into watching water boil—but Lei pointedly ignored the glance, instead straightening his spine and heading out. Needless to say, Lei was at best an awkward server. He didn’t have any of Suyin’s natural grace, and combined with the fact that he didn’t particularly want to be there in the slightest, and Suyin was left with more work…like cleaning up his messes. Eventually, Ettie (in her half-drunken state) came out and followed Lei around, making conversation where the man was silent—even if it was slightly bawdy conversation and gently nudging him whenever he forgot something. It was…an interesting afternoon.
When the end of the day came again, finally, Suyin dropped into another chair and sighed deeply. She had sent Simeon to take inventory of just how many smashed teacups they had acquired today, Lenore was tidying up the kitchen, and Elin was running a broom across the floor while again keeping an eye on Ettie, who had decided her good deed for the day had been done and was now indulging herself in the liquor cabinet yet again. Lei, however, still in apron, came over to where Suyin sat, and perched himself next to her stiffly, as if he was expecting her to berate him for coming so close. Instead, however, she just turned to him, giving him a brief glance, and sighed.
“Tell me,” she said, “do you think my mother really misses me, or is she just pretending because someone else above her wants to marry me?” Lei was silent, which in Suyin’s mind proved her point. She sighed, and then stood up.
“All mothers love their children,” Lei said suddenly, still sitting, “and all children love their mothers.” Suyin looked like she might want to say something in reply to this, but she just sighed, and shook her head.
“Why now?” was all the girl said, “what’s so special about now?” Even as she asked it, however, the conversation she had had with Simeon only a few days ago flashed back into her head. Instability. If there was a coup, better to have married Suyin off to some high-ranking family who could be right in place for taking over. Her mother, after all, always did have high aspirations. But then again, if she did really care, shouldn’t she just leave her daughter in England? After all, England would be safe, right?
She was never going to understand her mother, and her mother was never going to understand her. That much, Suyin knew. But then again, prolonging their separation only twisted their misunderstandings even more than they already were.
“Lenore!” Suyin called suddenly, raising her voice slightly. The small scientist popped out from the kitchen, a dishrag and plate in hand.
“Yes?” she asked, calm as always, although Suyin was sure that the woman could read her expression clearly.
“How much longer it take you to repair that ship?” the girl asked calmly. Lenore squinted at the air slightly, making mental calculations, and then unfurrowed her eyebrows.
“I should have everything finished by Thursday. Why?” she asked. Even Ettie had stopped drinking now to watch the conversation.
“Because,” Suyin said, as calm as Lenore, “I’ve decided. I’m going to China—but I’m coming back, too.”